Thursday, July 28, 2011 11:27:40 PM
Today would have been my Father's 63rd birthday. He died when he was 57. It still hurts though the pain is dulled by time. Grief like that never goes away completely I guess, it just gets dulled by time. I'm a little sad but I know he's in heaven and I know he's happy.
11:29:35 PM
[ my reply to a prompt sent to one of my Christian journalling groups]
Are some of your friends so precious that you hold them to be as dear to you as family?
O definitely. I call them my online family. I won't list them all but there are several of them. I have some online sons, 2 online Mums, a few online sisters and quite a few online brothers as well as 1 online dad. I'm blessed.
11:57:46 PM
this quote was sent to one of my Christian journalling groups, here is the quote and my thoughts about it:
"Where your feet take you, that is who you are." Frederich Buechner
I like this quote it made me think about where I want my feet to take me, what I want to be and do with my life that god has given me.
My feet take me to my keyboard a few times a day to sing and praise God. I am passionate about singing, I would sing all day long if I didn't have other things to do. I have always loved to sing and I used to dream of being an opera singer. I would love to use the voice god gave me for some purpose. O Lord, show me what you want me to do and give me the strength and the willingness to do it. Amen.
Monday, August 01, 2011 9:12:52
A new month, what does it hold? sometimes I think it would be nice to look ahead an know what was coming and at other times I'm glad I don't know. At least I know that god knows exactly what is going to happen to me this month, he knew all about my life from before the world was created. I can trust him in good times and bad times because he sees the bigger picture. The bible says:
For as the heavens are higher than the earth,
so are my ways higher than your ways
and my thoughts than your thoughts.
[Isaiah 55:9]
so i know he knows everything and how each situation will turn out. I find that thought very comforting. I hope this month will be a good one for all of us but if it isn't at least I know god has his hand on everything that happens and his way is always best.
Tuesday, August 02, 2011 03:07:46 PM
Fear.
It claws at my gut and makes my heart race.
A hundred "What if" scenarios fill my mind,
my peace goes out the window.
"God, are you out there?"
but the noise in my mind makes it hard to hear him.
the world says "don't worry be happy".
what planet are you from?
Do you think its as easy as that?
the bible says "Fear not"
but Lord that is so hard!
Maybe if I did this or that
then maybe you would help me?
If I promised not to do ...
or if I promise I'll do ...
won't you help me then ?
The choice is ours.
will we worry and stress and fret?
or will we trust and have faith in god?
worrying, what good does it do us? What help does it give us? it only puts our blood pressure up and keeps us awake at night. Jesus has this to say about worry:
And which of you by being anxious can add a single hour to his span of life?
[Matthew 6:27]
I was confronted by this today when I got a call that my doctor wants to see me. I had a blood test last week and I guess he wants to discuss it with me. fear immediately seized me and hit me with a heap of reasons why the Doctor wants to see me, none of them good. I had to make the choice, do I give into fear or do I trust God? It's not easy, it's a moment by moment choice. Fear doesn't give up easily, it keeps coming back and trying to take control, so we must keep choosing to trust god and ask his help to deal with our fears. Meditating on scriptures like this will help:
fear not, for I am with you;
be not dismayed, for I am your God;
I will strengthen you, I will help you,
I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.
[Isaiah 41:10]
god tells us several times in scripture to "fear not" so I guess he wants us to take it seriously.
God, give me strength to resist fear when it comes knocking. Help me to trust that you do know what you are doing and you know exactly what is going on with me. I give you praise because you said in your word:
"I will never leave you nor forsake you."
[Hebrews 13:5]
Help me to cling to promises like that when I am tempted to give into fear. Amen.
Thursday, August 04, 2011 1:33:03 AM
Well it's time again to upload this to my blog. It has certainly been an interesting week. i heard a Christian comedian describe the Christian life as interesting. I think I can agree with that. God doesn't want us to get caught in a rut of routine, he wants our life to be interesting, as we grow in maturity and know more about God and do what he says. It requires faith to live like that but god has given us the measure of faith.
well I will leave you with that thought and go and upload this. God bless you for reading.
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Monday, 25 July 2011
rishie's rambblings, 18-26 July 2011
dear readers:
This is the first in a section of my blog I am calling "Rishie's Ramblings". It is my online journal of my thoughts, reflections and randomness. I will try to post it every week but if I notice it's getting too long I will post it early and then start a new one.
Monday, 18 July 2011
[In response to an email on one of my Christian journalling groups]
Hi!
I remember working with clay when I was in primary school, I really enjoyed doing it. when we started working with clay we took a slab of it and slapped it down on a table a few times then kneaded it to get rid of the air bubbles. Sometimes it feels like that's happening to us as well, we all have things we need to get rid of in our lives. Then we would form the pot or whatever we were making, we did it by hand. That reminds me that God is intimately involved in our development he doesn't just stand at a distance. If we made a mistake in what we were forming we could always start again. the clay had to be moist but not watery. Sometimes God will keep working at an area in our lives until he has it right. sometimes we can think we are doing ok in an area and then he takes us back to that area and fixes up the flaws and we see we didn't have it together after all. Then when the pot was ready it had to dry out, which reminds me that sometimes we need to wait on God if we wonder why things aren't happening, he has his own perfect timing for everything. then our work was put in the kiln to bake. Afterwards it was glazed and baked again before it was ready to be used. that reminds me that there is a period where God teaches us and readies us for service. Just some thoughts.
Wednesday, July 20, 2011
Frustration:
Aaaarrrgggghhhh! grrr! I was so frustrated I was willing to try what a taxi driver had once suggested to me, reboot the computer ... with my foot!
I was in class last night for my computer course and nothing was working the way it should have done. The thing that really frustrated me was the teacher could do what we were working on with just a few mouse clicks but because Renae and I are blind we are having to use screen reading software, which means we need to use menus and shortcut keys which is ok, but when the teacher, ross, clicked on something it brought one menu up and when we did it we got a completely different menu. aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!
Later when thinking it over I said to God "I'm sure you have a lesson for me in all this, so help me to learn whatever it is." I think what he is teaching me is not to lose my cool when things are annoying me. That's a hard lesson to learn because I'm very impatient and when things don't work the way I want them to or the way I think they should I tend to throw up my hands and say I give up!"
god doesn't want us to give up though, he wants us to trust him and wait patiently for him to show us what he wants us to do. its something we need to learn because it's not our natural response, but with god's help we can do it.
I think we need to ask god if there is a lesson for us in any difficult situation we are facing. God has a reason for everything that happens to us, we just need to seek him and find out what that is.
Thursday, July 21, 2011 5:10:38 AM
it's cold here today. We even had a bit of snow and some more may have fallen during the night but as I can't see I can't tell. I'm really going to have to wrap up warmly when I go out today and I sure do wish those thermal spencers I have on laybuy were paid off, by the time i do that I wont' need them as much lol!
well at least I can thank God that I live in a relatively warm house and i have my little electric throw blanket over me. There is always something to thank god for if we look hard enough to find it.
I think I am going to make myself a cup of Milo and get a few hours sleep.
Tuesday, July 26, 2011 3:06:38 AM
Well I'm just about to upload this. Looks like I need to prod myself to write more regularly. I've been working on another bible study and I'm making progress with it.
May God bless you all.
Rishie
fragrantlight@dodo.com.au
This is the first in a section of my blog I am calling "Rishie's Ramblings". It is my online journal of my thoughts, reflections and randomness. I will try to post it every week but if I notice it's getting too long I will post it early and then start a new one.
Monday, 18 July 2011
[In response to an email on one of my Christian journalling groups]
Hi!
I remember working with clay when I was in primary school, I really enjoyed doing it. when we started working with clay we took a slab of it and slapped it down on a table a few times then kneaded it to get rid of the air bubbles. Sometimes it feels like that's happening to us as well, we all have things we need to get rid of in our lives. Then we would form the pot or whatever we were making, we did it by hand. That reminds me that God is intimately involved in our development he doesn't just stand at a distance. If we made a mistake in what we were forming we could always start again. the clay had to be moist but not watery. Sometimes God will keep working at an area in our lives until he has it right. sometimes we can think we are doing ok in an area and then he takes us back to that area and fixes up the flaws and we see we didn't have it together after all. Then when the pot was ready it had to dry out, which reminds me that sometimes we need to wait on God if we wonder why things aren't happening, he has his own perfect timing for everything. then our work was put in the kiln to bake. Afterwards it was glazed and baked again before it was ready to be used. that reminds me that there is a period where God teaches us and readies us for service. Just some thoughts.
Wednesday, July 20, 2011
Frustration:
Aaaarrrgggghhhh! grrr! I was so frustrated I was willing to try what a taxi driver had once suggested to me, reboot the computer ... with my foot!
I was in class last night for my computer course and nothing was working the way it should have done. The thing that really frustrated me was the teacher could do what we were working on with just a few mouse clicks but because Renae and I are blind we are having to use screen reading software, which means we need to use menus and shortcut keys which is ok, but when the teacher, ross, clicked on something it brought one menu up and when we did it we got a completely different menu. aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!
Later when thinking it over I said to God "I'm sure you have a lesson for me in all this, so help me to learn whatever it is." I think what he is teaching me is not to lose my cool when things are annoying me. That's a hard lesson to learn because I'm very impatient and when things don't work the way I want them to or the way I think they should I tend to throw up my hands and say I give up!"
god doesn't want us to give up though, he wants us to trust him and wait patiently for him to show us what he wants us to do. its something we need to learn because it's not our natural response, but with god's help we can do it.
I think we need to ask god if there is a lesson for us in any difficult situation we are facing. God has a reason for everything that happens to us, we just need to seek him and find out what that is.
Thursday, July 21, 2011 5:10:38 AM
it's cold here today. We even had a bit of snow and some more may have fallen during the night but as I can't see I can't tell. I'm really going to have to wrap up warmly when I go out today and I sure do wish those thermal spencers I have on laybuy were paid off, by the time i do that I wont' need them as much lol!
well at least I can thank God that I live in a relatively warm house and i have my little electric throw blanket over me. There is always something to thank god for if we look hard enough to find it.
I think I am going to make myself a cup of Milo and get a few hours sleep.
Tuesday, July 26, 2011 3:06:38 AM
Well I'm just about to upload this. Looks like I need to prod myself to write more regularly. I've been working on another bible study and I'm making progress with it.
May God bless you all.
Rishie
fragrantlight@dodo.com.au
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